I Really Want To Quit Smoking

Quitting smoking isn’t easy but don’t give up, at least that’s what I tell myself, and have been telling myself over this past year.

I haven’t been feeling well lately. I’m not sure when it started but I know some of it has to do with me smoking. Every time I get sick, it takes longer for me heal. If the boys bring home colds, I usually end up with pneumonia or bronchitis, and smoking is a contributing factor to these illnesses. But there are alternatives that I know of (like those from www.davincivaporizer.com) to help me quit this awful demon.

Doctors will tell you the risks of using a vaporizer. What I know is that it’s better than smoking cigarettes. My mom quit after 40 years of smoking using a vaporizer and she’s been quit a year now, barely using it anymore.

As for being sick, of course when I go to the doctor, antibiotics are usually given to me. My chest hurts from coughing up phlegm (another ailment from smoking) always helps increase the congestion. I’m left feeling run down and overall crappy. 

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Being Sick All the Time Can Be Debilitating

 

Feeling under the weather can you leave debilitated. You have no energy to do anything, play with the kids, clean the house, do the laundry. Yeah, not happening. You lose your voice, your tummy and appetite, and generally feel crappy all the time. That’s how I feel most days when I get sick and it lasts longer than a week. I know if I were to quit smoking, my immune system would pick up and overall despite feeling sick with a cold, I’d get better quicker and wouldn’t feel so down and out.

I’ve gone to doctors who are real jerks. They have refused to help me because I’m a smoker. Smoking is something that always comes up in the conversation. “Do you smoke?” I always answer “Yes.” That’s when the mood in the room changes and the lack of help begins.

I’m not stupid. I understand the effects of smoking. Christ! Do you think I want to smoke? It’s like being addicted to crack. Okay maybe not quite but it’s harsh. I don’t drink much, do any other drugs and yet smoking is something that has taken a hold of my life for the past twenty years. And it’s not as simple as just quitting. It’s hard, mentally and physically. But that doesn’t mean I’m not trying. 

It also doesn’t mean that a person should be denied help medically because they smoke. Does smoking affect my sinuses? Yes it does. Does it affect my health? Yes it does. Is it the reason I may be feeling sick all the time? Might be. Still, I’m a human being and I deserve to get proper treatment whether I choose to smoke or not. 

Right now I’m on a journey to better health. I’ve removed red meat from my diet adding more chicken and turkey, more vegetables and fruit, more salads and greens and lentils and less carbs. I’m drinking more water. I’m down 2 lbs this week. Okay not great but it’s a start. A start I choose to make. And I will choose to quit smoking and never give up trying to quit as many times as it takes until I do. 

In the meantime, I don’t need you dear doctor punishing me for making a poor choice in my life that I cannot go back and fix, but one that I’m diligently working on changing. What I need is your support.

One day at a time. 

One step after another.

Change can take affect.

If you believe it can. 

I will never give up! 

 

 

13 thoughts on “I Really Want To Quit Smoking”

  1. Yes, if I quit it will be for my overall health. Also money cigarette are so expensive. MY girl friend been using the use the vapor for 3 months now! She completely quit and use the vapor. She was sick for about two weeks, sweating, not sleeping but after that, everything return to normal.

    1. There is a side effect from it but it’s caused from not smoking not the vape. My mom went through it too for the first like three weeks, after that she was fine. Now she’s been quit a year and barely uses the vape. I’m so proud of her.

  2. I have been smoking for just about 40 years. I quit when I was pregnant for both my children. I quit a few other time and the longest was for two weeks. I don’t smoke in my house. My mom pass away of Lung cancer in October. It was her third Lung cancer in 19 years. This time surgery wasn’t an option. She was a smoker and quit 19 years ago when first diagnose. I still smoke, On one of my annual check , my doctor told me not to save for my retirement, I wouldn’t live to see it. I wasn’t happy, I have been avoiding her when I have bronchitis and go to a walking clinic. My girlfriend quite a few month ago with the E cigarette (vapour). She’s doing good. I started thinking about quieting because of the cost.

    1. You should. I mean there are no guarantees about quitting, like with your mom. But overall I think it improves the quality of life. I’m going to use the vapor to even cut back. I figure the less I smoke the better it is for me. Plus my kids want to see me quit. I want to be here but I understand like you I’ve been smoking since I was 13 years old. It’s like heroine. It’s so utterly addictive and hard to quit but I’m going to keep trying. You can too, Carole! There are groups on FB to help you, give you the support you need on down days when you feel like having one. Maybe check some of those out. Thanks for sharing your story with us hun 🙂 You aren’t alone.

  3. Holy Crap! Super scary:( I'm 90 % sure I have severe sleep apnea as well. I'm always tired and apparently snore up a storm too. Nervous about what the results will say, so I haven't gone yet. Plus if they give me the machine for a month to test if I have it, I can't exactly afford the $2000 machine that I have to wear every night 🙁 I'm a smoker too! Have been for the last 20 years, god I feel old saying that! LOL I do hope things get better. Will be waiting to see the outcome of this all. xo

    1. That's how long I've been smoking, too. It is hard. I got the gum today and tried it but hate it, but will keep going on it. I'm wearing the machine tonight so we will see how I do.

  4. I am very proud of you for your work on the "Stop Smoking Front".It is work and very hard work. Please keep it up. As for the Dr. not wanting to help you because of it….. well it did make you stop smoking so I guess it was all bad.

    I just had a Dr. refuse me as a patient because of my meds… I was told that he does not believe in prescribing narcotics to anyone for anything. So that left me kicked to the curb. Did not matter that I do not give away nor sell my meds nor do I Dr. hop. O could go on about this but in the end it is not a good thing when a Dr. will not help you.

    1. Hi Cathy you misunderstood, I'm working on quitting. I haven't quit smoking. That was my point. I got refused help because I smoke. And doctors shouldn't refuse patients medical care ever!

  5. OH that ticks me off so bad when they immediately go to 'stop smoking'. My hubby went to the doctor for a FOLLOW up on his thyroid levels and she said ' and I am going to write you this script for the stop smoking medication." Never mentioned his thyroid levels till I blew a gasket on her. It is hell to quit. I have smoked a lot longer then that. I went almost 28 hours without one trying to quit and my whole face and body went numb. I was a basket case. I can't do Chantix because I already suffer depression and anxiety. I can do this and so can you. Then tell the doctor to kiss your butt.

    1. Oh yeah I ain't going back to him. I'm so done with doctors giving me no answers. I guess because I get angry instead of bawling so they feel sorry for me, I get nowhere. I will just keep pushing through. 🙂

    1. I will. I actually get to wear a monitor thingy so they can test my sleep, ha! If I get any.

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