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Quitting smoking Is Not Easy

Quitting smoking isn’t easy but don’t give up, at least that’s what I tell myself, and have been telling myself over this past year.

I haven’t been feeling well lately. I’m not sure when it started but I know some of it has to do with me smoking. Every time I get sick, it takes longer for me heal. If the boys bring home colds, I usually end up with pneumonia or bronchitis, and smoking is a contributing factor to these illnesses. But there are alternatives that I know of (like those from to help me quit this awful demon.

Doctors will tell you the risks of using a vaporizer. What I know is that it’s better than smoking cigarettes. My mom quit after 40 years of smoking using a vaporizer and she’s been quit a year now, barely using it anymore.

As for being sick, of course when I go to the doctor, antibiotics are usually given to me. My chest hurts from coughing up phlegm (another ailment from smoking) always helps increase the congestion. I’m left feeling run down and overall crappy. 



Being Sick All the Time Can Be Debilitating


Feeling under the weather can you leave debilitated. You have no energy to do anything, play with the kids, clean the house, do the laundry. Yeah, not happening. You lose your voice, your tummy and appetite, and generally feel crappy all the time. That’s how I feel most days when I get sick and it lasts longer than a week. I know if I were to quit smoking, my immune system would pick up and overall despite feeling sick with a cold, I’d get better quicker and wouldn’t feel so down and out.

I’ve gone to doctors who are real jerks. They have refused to help me because I’m a smoker. Smoking is something that always comes up in the conversation. “Do you smoke?” I always answer “Yes.” That’s when the mood in the room changes and the lack of help begins.

I’m not stupid. I understand the effects of smoking. Christ! Do you think I want to smoke? It’s like being addicted to crack. Okay maybe not quite but it’s harsh. I don’t drink much, do any other drugs and yet smoking is something that has taken a hold of my life for the past twenty years. And it’s not as simple as just quitting. It’s hard, mentally and physically. But that doesn’t mean I’m not trying. 

It also doesn’t mean that a person should be denied help medically because they smoke. Does smoking affect my sinuses? Yes it does. Does it affect my health? Yes it does. Is it the reason I may be feeling sick all the time? Might be. Still, I’m a human being and I deserve to get proper treatment whether I choose to smoke or not. 

Right now I’m on a journey to better health. I’ve removed red meat from my diet adding more chicken and turkey, more vegetables and fruit, more salads and greens and lentils and less carbs. I’m drinking more water. I’m down 2 lbs this week. Okay not great but it’s a start. A start I choose to make. And I will choose to quit smoking and never give up trying to quit as many times as it takes until I do. 

In the meantime, I don’t need you dear doctor punishing me for making a poor choice in my life that I cannot go back and fix, but one that I’m diligently working on changing. What I need is your support.

One day at a time. 

One step after another.

Change can take affect.

If you believe it can. 

I will never give up! 



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