I am writing this with a heavy heart right now because I hate reporting bad news. I really do! Last year I went through a series of issues, Vertigo being one of the major issues in my life that caused me so much turmoil, I became deeply depressed.
Well now, lucky me. My Vertigo is back, and not in a good way. It’s worse than before, which I’m sure that’s even possible because it was pretty bad before. Yet, it is worse.
What is Vertigo?
It’s a feeling of dizziness you get when you move too quickly and can cause an array of symptoms such as; vomitting, spinning, loss of balance, fear, anxiety, heart palpitations and more.
Vertigo isn’t fun. I hate it and I’m really ticked that it’s back. We discovered last time my vertigo was caused by the mold in the unit I was living in. Once the mold was removed, my vertigo disappeared. It’s been almost a year since I had an episode. That was until last week.
The first episode wasn’t so bad. I got up quickly and instantly felt dizzy. Being that I have had Vertigo before, I immediately knew what to expect. I focused my eyes on one object and it went away.
The second, third and fourth episode this past weekend were similar. I just felt dizzy and had to focus and it went away almost instantly.
Last night’s episode hit me hard! It wasn’t the same. It was a full blown Vertigo attack where I passed out in my husband’s arms and ended up on the floor on my hands and knees, yelling at him not to touch me because the sensation to vomit was so overwhelming. My heart was racing. My legs felt numb. My head pounding, as I just laid on the floor and cried and cried. Let’s just say it wasn’t much fun.
I think the worst part for me is the feeling of no control. Feeling unbalanced and as if gravity is stealing me away. That and the sudden urge to apologize, almost like having a seizure. You just go through the episode and then you suddenly feel stupid because you could help those helping you and stop the worry and fear you feel from them.
I’m heading to the doctors today to discuss the situation and let him know what’s going on. I hope this time they help me and it doesn’t take a year, like it took before we actually figured out what was wrong and the why.